31 May 2009 (Sunday) 

Want one.

My tummy's sore tonight. I hope it's not something I ate. I've also just noticed that we're now in to June. That's kinda depressing . My jaw's sore when I yawn or chew. That's kinda sore .

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30 May 2009 (Saturday) 

Little baby (he's really not so little now, but he's still cute) Joseph had his naming ceremony today and Ju and Simon and I all went up to Lucy's to see him. And all the rest of the family of course. It was a gorgeous day and we all had a good time. Although... the other kids are so very grown up now .

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29 May 2009 (Friday) 

Pushing Daisies... It's so very cute!

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28 May 2009 (Thursday) 

Tired again today, but that's partly due to not sleeping much, partly due to walking around a little, and partly due to... um... something else. On the plus side, today I've had my hair cut and went shopping of christening presents. On the minus side... actually not much of a minus side today.

This evening I'm watching Pushing Daisies - series 2, episode 1... it's so very very sweet . Makes me smile a lot. So much so that I changed the name of my desktop machine from Andi (from Reaper) to Chuck (from Pushing Daisies).

For reference, there's also Jaye (from Wonderfalls), my laptop; Lynda (from Press Gang), my old desktop; Buttercup (from The Princess Bride), my server. There was also Virginia (from The 10th Kingdom), my RPC build/test machine, but it's gone now.

My new drive and case arrived today, too, and has been fitted. It's slightly different from the old one - in particular there's no drive LEDs on the front of it. But it works, and it was pretty easy to deal with.

I woke up yesterday thinking that Angela had called me.

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27 May 2009 (Wednesday) 

I planned on being in bed early tonight, but... that didn't work out. Hopefully I'll get some sleep though.

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26 May 2009 (Tuesday) 

I come away from the work machine and it's gone 1am . That said I didn't get up until 9:50... so... hell, that's no excuse . I did watch Last Action Hero with Simon this evening, though.

My fingers are sore - too much biting my nails . Silly.

On the plus side... Claire and Caroline and Christina all said hello's today... Happy me .

On the minus side, my tummy's been sore all day.

... and I've just fallen down the stairs whilst returning with my very hot cup of tea. Ouch.

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25 May 2009 (Monday) 

Quiet day today. Nobody around hardly. Pretty fed up. I've got a couple of LinkedIn things to sort out that I've just not done yet due to laziness. I need to be able to concentrate and be in the right mood to write things about people and I've not really felt like doing that the last few days. I should, but I've not. Maybe tomorrow.

Plus, watching a small segment of 'The Wall' has left me feeling more fed up than usual .

Everyone's still on holiday as before, so ... no emails and nobody to talk to. On the plus side from that, I've caught up on a few things that I should have done before. Of one of them had involved getting my hair cut, that would have been good, but it hasn't.

Tired this evening and directionless. Well, I've got a direction and I know what I need to do, but I'm putting it off till tomorrow because it's work and... well, it's nearly 2am, so maybe I shouldn't be doing work. Not that the time really matters all that much. I tend to notice around 5 or 6ish in the evening that there's suddenly nobody around. Makes doing work a lot easier because there's nobody I might end up annoying, but... still, there's nobody. Well, when I say around 5 or 6ish, what I mean is that at around 7 I realise what the time is and that I've spoken to nobody for 2 hours or so.

My tummy's a bit tender today. I'm not sure why; I've not burnt it, not rubbed it badly. So I'm not sure why it's sore.

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22 May 2009 (Friday) 

It seems that people are all off on holiday. It'll be lonely this week. Chris has gone to Czech-land for a beer trip. Caroline's away with her parents. Christina's gone to see her Parents. It's a bank holiday on monday so I don't expect a lot of people to be around either.

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21 May 2009 (Thursday) 

I woke up this morning from a dream where I was reading an article in "Brooms Weekly" magazine. It was a helpful article on how to defend yourself with a broom handle in the middle of an insurgency.

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20 May 2009 (Wednesday) 

If you see me now, with my face so sad, You would not know the beauty I had. The god took it away, they can be so cruel, Don't look at my face, don't be a fool! Turn away, quick, or you'll turn to stone, I do not mean to chill your bone, But fear my eyes and my snakey hair, don't look upon Medusa, within this lair! [ Medusa; Me ]

To move to the poems section at some point...

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19 May 2009 (Tuesday) 

I'll tell you quickly about the swans by the canal here...

On the way to my old work I cross a canal. Over the far side of the canal there is a nest for some swans. They've been there the last two years nesting and they're really sweet and they have cygnets and they live and play in the canal for a few months.

This year the swans were on the nests a couple of weeks ago and then suddenly weren't around. No swans. I wondered where they went, and assumed that they'd lost the eggs and gone elsewhere. Aww

And today the swans were back. And there were 7 little cygnets there as well! Wandering around and playing playing with one another and asking for food - especially wandering around

And hiding under one of the raised mooring decks there was a small nest for moorhens. Now, a moorhen's pretty small - about a hand's-width and a half long... but the little baby moorhens are tiny. So much so that I could only really see them by their shadow on the nest and their orangey beaks. Whilst I was watching today a couple were jumping in the water and climbing back on to the nest again.

I'm watching 'Pushing Daisies' at the moment. It's so gorgeously cute. It's like a little fairy tale, with all the magic and the strangeness. And it's cute.

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14 May 2009 (Thursday) 

I don't have any energy today for anything. I just don't know what there is left really. Work's pretty crap, and that's about it really in my life.

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13 May 2009 (Wednesday) 

Spent most of the day helping pack up things out of the office. And the nice telly's gone back now. Which means that I'm stuck with my old little telly. Which isn't too bad, but it's not great compared to what I'd got used to.

Also this evening I've been setting up the new PC, which hasn't been amazingly fun, but at least they've got OS installed and are able to start doing stuff.

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12 May 2009 (Tuesday) 

Dull day today, but slightly made worse by finding plans this evening scuppered by not having a printer. Well, I have a printer. The only thing is that it doesn't work. Which isn't all that useful. I've been saying I should get a decent, working, printer for some time. Only lack of cash has been an obvious limiting factor.

Speaking of which, the telly that I borrowed from work goes back tomorrow. Which is a little disappointing as I was actually quite enjoying having it. Ah well.

Spent the last half hour replying to Christina; it's really nice to chat to her. Cheers me up at the end of the day.

Really tired now and in need of sleep, but not sure how easy that will be to get . Well, we'll see.

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11 May 2009 (Monday) 

"Life, don't talk to me about life", said Marvin, speaking of his loathing for all life everywhere. I dunno. Mine's just not the way that I want it to be. It turns out that I don't know much these days. What I want seems to be unattainable, but I don't know what to do to replace that. Should you even try to ? I always believed that you shouldn't change your mind just because there's an obstacle, unless you're convinced. And that you should make sure you tell the truth, even if it means qualifying things .

My legs ache tonight; I couldn't sleep a whole lot last night and gave up around 2ish and decided to do stuff randomly. I wasn't so successful but I did sleep in the end.

I thought you were singing your heart out to me; Your lips were syncing and now I see [ Change, from Sheryl Crow, by Sheryl Crow ]

How can you tell if what you see is only what you wanted to see ? Or how can you tell when you're just playing through things ? I dunno those either, but when you look at the actions, rather than purely what's been said, things seem clearer. Never been good at acting on what I know, despite always wanting to have a clear picture. Because without a clear picture, all you have is a blurred vision of something that might not even be what you thought.

Do I think it's all going to work out some day ? All evidence is to the contrary, and I'm not really making any headway on changing that. There is no happiness, there's just what you do, and not feeling like you want to scream in the mornings. And the afternoons.

I'm just trying not to try to sleep. Trying to sleep leads to frustration and annoyance. Only tiredness and sleep dispells that. I almost wrote sheep there; that'd change the meaning in a far more disturbing way.

I'm still hungry; I should have really got some cereal.

It's not really that you give up trying, but more that you've learnt that trying only ever leads to disappointment, and after a lot of trying you could really do without the disappointment.

I haven't had any 'banana' in ages.

Still not able to sleep, but very tired.

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10 May 2009 (Sunday) 

It's 2am again and yet again I can't sleep. I know I get very worked up about the crap that's going on right now, and maybe I shouldn't. But, it's not just the fact of what's going on, but the way that it's being handled. The downright insulting manner in which I'm being treated really doesn't improve my mood. Alas, this is the way that it is.

I was pretty amused by this not so long ago. Someone put together a little program to repeatedly evolve keyboard layouts to find a more efficient layout. Dvorak and Qwerty were also included in the mix and ... it evolved Dvorak-like keyboards. Not only is it quite cool that it came up with solutions similar to one that's 'generally known' to be better, but... it actually evolved keyboards . I just think it's quite neat.

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9 May 2009 (Saturday) 

I've been trying to work out why my bandwidth usage has been higher than I'd expect, even considering that I'm working from home now. It turns out that one major factor in the is WinCVS. Looking at a remote filesystem it appears to use about 12KB/sec. Which isn't much in itself (it's still quite high) but over the course of a day when you don't know that it's doing it, it adds up quite a bit.

After much of the frustrations I had on Friday, Alex invited me out with him and his friends to go see Star Trek. Which was really great and I thoroughly enjoyed. That said, it's now Sunday morning and I've spent most of the day doing work-type things. Oh well.

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7 May 2009 (Thursday) 

I've updated my RSS feed generator this evening to include the cached IMDB details in the feed content for films. It's not particularly hard to add in, so I thought I'd do that.

"Teamwork, it helps your employees feel gruntled" [ Gruntled; Better Off Ted ]

I woke up from a dream where there was a riot outside the offices and people were throwing bricks and punching management-type people as they were trying to get in.

Whilst you're feeling down, disillusioned with life and questioning the utter futility of everything.... it's probably not the best of plans to be watching Reggie Perrin. That said, it has its moments.

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6 May 2009 (Wednesday) 

This evening I wrote a very simple RSS generator, to make a simple feed that will tell me what things I have had added to the video collection in the last day. So stuff that's been recorded will turn up there. At least, that's the plan.

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5 May 2009 (Tuesday) 

Max: Chief, are you thinking what I'm thinking ? Chief: I dunno, are you think thinking "Holy Shit, Holy Shit, Holy Shit, a sword fish nearly went through my head" ? [ A Sword Fish!; Maxwell Smart and the Chief; Get Smart ]

As one-liners go, that's pretty cool - I've not laughed so much in a while. I also rather liked the Seigfried cameo. Actually it's not a bad film at all.

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